I'm still a lemming.

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A list of 100 things


This came with instructions stating:

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.

2. Star the things that you have in common with me.

3. Whatever you don't star, replace with things about you. (unless you don't have that much time on your hands)

Since I do not particularly endorse the unthinking spread of memos or of chain-mail (however cleverly disguised as humor or enlightenment) I will not tell my readers to follow those instructions. If you feel like it, you're welcome to do so of course... But it's entirely up to you if you feel like posting your own version, and how many people you exhort to do the same. For me, I'll just say: This is here. Read it if you feel like it. Copy and alter for your own version only if you feel like expending the time and energy. Don't send out a million copies via email insisting that your friends do the same or they'll suffer some dire consequences. If you do, I will hunt you down and visit some dire consequences on you.

Here goes....


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100 Things

01. My name is Myrna.

02. I love the smell of The Body Shop's vanilla candles*

03. I haven't had a TV with cable ever. I don't miss it. Not one bit.

04. I believe in God. (I'm not always sure about Religion, though). *

05. I used to know HTML (I learned it at school but haven't used it since. I would like to take it up again).

06. I know more open-minded people than closed-minded. That makes me happy. *

07. I talk to myself... and answer back.*******

08. I have developed a surprising dislike Christmas carols on the radio.

09. I do not own a cat, or a dog.* I do however own 2 adorable little mice.

10. Summer Thunderstorms are the best.*

11. I love getting packages in the mail. *

12. I would rather go sky diving than bungee jumping.

13. Love is amazing. Romance is over-rated.*

14. I don't smoke.******

15. Sleep is overrated.*** (Sleep is a poor substitute for caffeine!)

16. LARPing is good excuse to sew wild and crazy clothes.

17. I love Post-It notes.

18. I have low tolerance for people who complain about their lives, but don't get off their butts and do anything to change it.*

19. I have a remarkably high pain tolerance. *

20. I wish I could type faster. *

21. I have too many stuffed animals.* (and am looking to adopt more)

22. I wish I could spend more time with the people I love. *

23. I am a survivor.

24. I used to want to live in a tent in Africa.

25. I believe you can learn a lot about a person by seeing what makes them angry, and how they handle that anger. *

26. I love photos.***

27. I want to help people.*******

28. I consider it a compliment when people tell me I'm weird. *

29. I love form-fitting, comfy jeans.******

30. I hate having wet socks.

31. Always take it to the Edge. Break the Rules.

32. I should build more muscle.

33. I procrastinate. A LOT.*******

34. Lego is a wonderful invention. *

35. I am a hypocrite.*** But at least I recognize that fact.

36. I have grown up enough to be realize that my parents were usually right. In fact, my parents advice seems wiser as I get older.*

37. I'm chaotic good.

38. I'm an optimist.

39. Music has always been a big part of my life.

40. I have more books than I have bookshelf space for.* (Two Library techs in one little apartment... )

41. I'm in love with the dark.******

42. That is the answer, yes. I'm still looking for the Question.*

43. I have never been outside of Canada.

44. I believe hard work and communication are more important in a relationship than that nebulous notion of "love". I also believe that with sufficient hard work and communication, you can be utterly blown away by how much love can exist in a a relationship. *

45. I have learned to appreciate silence.**

46. I miss the ocean.

47. I wish I was better at keeping in touch with my friends.**

48. I wish I could fly.

49. Someday I want to visit Australia. * (and New Zealand and Ireland)

50. I miss living in dorm.

51. I don't read enough books. *

52. Best friends are the ones who don't leave when the going gets tough.**

53. I believe that everyone has at least one thing about themselves which is incredible. And Jeanne has incredible collarbones! *

54. I want a flat belly again. *

55. Modern fashion trends suck.** (except for the hippie chic thing)

56. Given the choice, I'd rather be laughing.**

57. Thanksgiving is my favourite holiday

58. I want to publish a book of Celtic knots some day.

59. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.*******

60. I have many goals for my future, and I don't expect to fulfill them all - but I'm pleasantly surprised when I do. *

61. I hate unnecessary violence.******* (Necessary violence is another matter entirely) *

62. If you keep your eyes open, its amazing how many opportunities you can find to broaden your horizons, even on a daily basis. *

63. The odd and the eccentric are attractive/attracted to me.***

64. I miss taking walks by the river.*** (More accurately, I miss taking walks by the Freeman River valley at Angels' Valley back home.)

65. The rain is beautiful.*******

66. Getting hurt is part of growing up. And I'm not done growing up yet. *

67. Stickers are fun.****** (that's why I became a library tech, I get to stick stickers all the time!)

68. I like getting e-mails.*******

69. I've finally learned to ignore the phone.**

70. Sometimes the night was beautiful.

71. I'm a geek and proud of it.*******

72. Ooooh, shinies...**

73. My life is CRAZY.

74. I got to celebrate a -1 wedding anniversary.

75. I love being cared about.*******

76. I love hearing my friends sing. *

77. I love little kids.*** (Little babies are a different story). *

78. I love starfish and cows.

79. Dreams are good things to have, but bad things to base your entire life on.*

80. I wish I could express my thoughts, ideas, and stories better in words.*******

81. Mmmmm... spaghetti...

82. I can't sit still.

83. If I have something in my hands (paper, a straw, a kleenex, whatever) I'll fidget with it until it's nearly unrecognizable.

84. I could do with making less phone calls.

85. I'm from the country and I like it that way.

86. Talk to me. I want to know your thoughts.**

87. Salads are great.****** (but desserts are even better). *

88. I need more cuddles.*******

89. I'm a backrub whore.*

90. Everyone is bisexual. Some people just haven't realized it yet. *

91. 91. I love acting.******

92. I am a packrat.*** (but an organized one. Really!)

93. Zodiac, shmodiac.*

94. I like snow play in.

95. Poesy rings are my favourite (they're the ones with a verse written on the outside of the band).

96. I test well.

97. Enjoy Life. This is not a dress rehearsal. *

98. Ignorance is bliss..... sometimes. *

99. I enjoy real-life.

100. You make your own family.*** (But keeping my biological family is very important to me.)


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Okay, you made it through all 100. Or.. you just scrolled down. Either way if you're really bored, like I was, Fill it out. Post it on your own blog if you want. Just don't email it to everyone and their dog, okay?

Yay! It's my last day of work before the holidays!!!!!! I'd be more excited but I'm too tired. :)

Yesterday was spent shopping with Star. We had a fabulous time, spent too much money, and bought a vibrator (for her mother). I must say, that I had never been in an "adult" store before but was not very surprised. The most amusing thing I saw was a rug burn prevention kit (you do the math).

I'm not sure how often I'll get to post over my break so


Happy Christmas!!!
AND
Merry New Year!!!

Hugs!!

Yesterday, I went wedding dress shopping. In about 3 hours, we got figured out what my dress is going to look like and what the bride's maid dresses are going to be like too. I'm so effceint. It also makes the wedding seem more real.

Before, the wedding was something that I was happy about but was far away. Now, I'm making plans and decisions. I'm excited.

Tangentally, I have only one day of work left before my break. Yay!!

I did my first Capoeira class last evening. I had fun but OW!

It's NOMORECHEMO Day!!!! (One year since I had my last chemotherapy treatment.)

I'm feeling kind of reflective.

For the most part, having Hodgkin's disease SUCKED! I was tired all the time (hmm sounds like having three jobs ;o) ), I was sick from the treatment, I lost my hair. I was angry because it was so unfair. I had just finished my Library Tech diploma; ready to get a REAL job and I had to put it on hold to be sick. There was also the possibility that the treatment might not work to worry about. The thought of dying was terrifying; I wasn't done living yet. I had too much left to do.

One of the worst things about chemo was going there every two weeks, knowing that the medicine was going to make me sick. You know, my mother spent my whole life telling you not to do things that make me sick and here she's making me go do something that makes me ILL! It's a strange mind set.

The other terrible thing was the smell. Chemo drugs smell. I can't go into the Cross Cancer without feeling nauseous just from the smell. I began to associate other smells with chemo as well. My mom uses Herbal Essences shampoo and her hair always smelled like it when she came to pick me up to go to the hospital. I can't smell that scent without thinking of chemo.



It wasn't all bad though. I learned a new skill. I had to learn to give myself injections. I'm not sure if I'll ever use it again. But it's something I can do.

I also got to spend a lot of time with my mom. She came into the city to take me to treatment and then took care of me afterwards. It was time that I wouldn't have gotten to spend with Mom otherwise. Over those months, I got to be know Mom as an adult. We aren't just mother/daughter anymore, we're friends.

I also learned things about myself.

I'm vain. One of my worst fears while having chemo was that people could tell that I was "a cancer patient". You know, bald, wearing turbans and hats. I didn't want people's pity (at least not random strangers). I wanted to be able to go to work and just be "normal". That's a lot of why it took me until November to cut my hair.

I'm tough. I may have had times of despair and fear, but for the most part I took it and dealt. I can live with pain.

I'm a survivor. I can take just about anything and come out stronger.

Cheers!

So much for getting lots of time off.

Something is going on with one of the people I work with at Grant Mac (I haven't been able to get anyone to tell me what happened). On Tuesday, she had a meeting with the union and she hasn't worked since. (Sound like she's gone, huh?) Yesterday, she came in and cleaned off her desk (sounds even more like she's gone). This afternoon, the bosses called me into the office and asked if I could work some extra shifts over the next two weeks. I agreed to work two half shifts next week and on full shift the week after. Sigh.

There are some new FULL TIME jobs (WITH BENEFITS!!!) for library techs being posted. I'm going to apply and hopefully I'll be able to leave the CRAZINESS behind.

I'm still feeling kinda BLAH. I haven't been able to get to sleep before 1 a.m. any night this week and I've been getting up at seven ( I know some of you are going, "Wow! Six hours of sleep! What are you complaining about. But I don't handle not getting enough sleep.

Enough whining. I'm going to make a list of good things in my life.

1. My brother, Clayton and I are going shopping after work ( I don't get to spend enough time with my fav 'lil bro).

2. Friday is "NOMORECHEMO DAY" (it's a year since I had my last chemo treatment). I'm going to make a cake and take it to Friday night gaming at James and La's.

3. I have a Davyd who loves me.

4. Only 1 day left at Grant MacEwan, 2 days left at Concordia and 3 days left at NorQuest before I get more than 2 weeks off!!!!!!

5. Next Thursday, I'm going to go wedding dress / bridesmaid dress shopping with most of my bridesmaids (2 out of 3), my mom and Davyd's mom.

6. I have a lilac bunny named Louisa (she's very understanding when I've had a rough day).

My friend Kristal sent me this survey entitled "How well do you know me?" These are some of my favourite answers my friends sent back to me so far:

Kristal said:

18.What's one of my fav things to do outdoors?: throw small children out of the canoe into the ocean... I never said you did it, I I just think it would be one of your favorite things to do...

21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?: you're the best kind of rebel, the kind that make people think you follow the rules

47. What do you think I'll be when I grow up? N/A

51. What song(if any)reminds you of me? He thinks my tractor's sexy

53. If you could rename me, what would my name be? Silvina

55. A feature that you like about me: Your Myrna-laugh


Jenette wrote:

18.What's one of my fav things to do outdoors?: hmmm... roll your car?

52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV? Pheobe on Friends!

It looks like I'm going to be off work for about 2 1/2 weeks around Christmas. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself. Wait. I know exactly what I'm going to do with myself:

1. Clean my house! (It hasn't had a really good cleaning since I started working so much. Ick!)

2. Sew! (I haven't sewed since shortly after I quit Fabricland. That was early October).

3. Sledding! (I want to get people organized to go sledding sometime. Any ideas what would be a good day?)

4. Nothing! (I don't get to do that enough.)


I'm really looking forward to some time off.

Driving with Myrna : Episode 6

When I'm at work at Grant MacEwan, I park in a gravel lot. There aren't any markers for spaces but people generally park in an orderly fashion (sort of).

This afternoon, when I got off work I go out to my car and some MORON had parked behind me. What's the problem, you ask. I was parked behind another car. The MORON had boxed me in. I couldn't move my car. I got mad, and then I got even. I called the people who operate the lot and had his truck towed.

Don't mess with this bunny, she bites!! : )